She (and I) decided that it was time for the belt come off. The rash at the base of my penis became worse and we decided that it was better to let it heal unprovoked in order to make wearing of the belt easier. We removed the belt yesterday and today the soreness is almost gone. Anyway, she took advantage of my situation last night and used me big time. Let me just say that I am empty today and a bit sore on/in my behind.
I am wondering whether the penis tube is too small or if my ego is too big. If the rash continues to be a problem, I will ask Dr. Mende. “Only time will tell” as William Shatner said in Star Wars.. I will keep that in mind.
Wearing a chastity belt is strange when dealing with everyday challenges. On the one hand I feel superior and focused and on the other I feel vulnerable. I do not want our secret to be public and I do not seek any public approvel. But I want to be able to be me even though she is my mistress. If I need to lessen my mental capacity to be her slave, something is wrong. In a relationship both parties must contribute to making the other the best one can be. Nothing less; or at least.. That is what I hope. I have seen many examples of male subs trying to escape from their adult (and personal) resposibilities by being a sub in “dire need for correction” and I loathe that. Grow up, take responsibility and be a man!
My point is that it is easy to give up responsibility in a resonsibly manner when being a sub or a slave and that we need to reflect constantly upon our motives and reasons for being in that subordinate position. Being in a chastity belt has only made that fact clearer to me. I can not wear my collar 24/7 to show my position because I do not want it to be the primary part of my public life and apperance. But when being chatestisized I can be subordinate to my mistress 24/7 without imposing my values on other peoples lifes.
I am putting the belt back on tomorrow and hope that the rash will subside. She still has the key and as always I will trust her judgement and will –as always- continue to make life wonderfully difficult.
Tags: Chastity Thoughts
